this was taken on New Year's Eve 2009. We welcomed 2010 goofing around :)

Nanay was still in pretty good shape here. I would always remember her like this. 

Clock is Ticking

Film of tears is almost blinding my eyes everytime I get to think of Nanay. She is getting weaker everyday. It is hurting seeing her go through this difficult stage. I had never seen her helpless like this. I realized that she had been wasting away for months. I had been so caught up in my own life that I took her for granted.

It is painful knowing that we only have so little time left together. She would never see me married; she would never hold my son, my daughter. The thought of living the rest of my life without her is almost too much to bear.

Last night, she asked me to go buy her an order of porridge. As I was feeding her, I took the guts to tell her, “Nay, sorry ha?”, willing the tears not to come. She looked me in the eyes and asked “Saan?” I said, “Kasi wala akong nagagawa sayo.” My voice was croaky when I let out those involuntary tears. I tried not to cry but I can’t help it. She just smiled and didn’t say a word. I made an effort to pop in some humor when I told her, “Ito na lang magagawa ko sayo. Subuan ka ng lugaw tsaka painumin ng tubig.” And embraced her. I wiped my tears, conscious that there would soon be a time when this simple act of affection would no longer be possible.

Nanay is turning 74 years old on January 30, God willing. All her life, she has been very good to her family, her friends, her neighbors, to people she knows. She has been the best grandmother to me and I could never ask for more. I love her. I just love her. I am trying to block the future in my head because once she’s gone, I will heartbreakingly miss her all my life.

Ellay and Baby Jones

This is me and Baby Jones (Marga and Christian's Baby haha). I am training him and actually doing hands on on his first day at work. Cute :)

Thank You, God :)

I am really happy about what's going on with my life now, you know? :) Everything has been turning out well and everyday has just been wonderful. I thank God for these. I am sorry though for not being patient when I was really having those hard times before. I should have known better that God will never ever do anything to hurt His children. I am just still lucky that He never gave up on me and now, He is showering me with all these blessings around me despite of my stubbornness.

I will end this year with a smile and all the hope that every tomorrow will be better according to His will.

Gusto ko lamang sa buhay - Itchyworms

Ayokong maghintay pa sa imposible
Ayoko ng mga romatikong sine
Ayoko nang umasa pa sa walang silbi

Ayokong tumawid pag pinagbabawal
Ayoko ng kapeng maraming asukal
Ayokong bumili ng underwear na mahal

Chorus:
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako
Hindi naman ako milyonaryo
Basta't araw-araw yakap mo ko
Feeling ko ang yaman yaman ko

Ok lang kung 'di maging presidente
Ok lang kung mawalan ng kuryente
Ok lang kung ang bumbilya'y walang sindi
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/i/itchyworms/gusto_ko_lamang_sa_buhay.html ]
Ok lang kung ketchup lamang ang ulam
Ang gulay ay hindi naman kailangan
Basta't sa sandwich mo ako ang iyong palaman

Chorus:
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako

Hindi naman ako milyonaryo
Basta't araw-araw yakap mo ko
Feeling ko ang yaman yaman ko
Feeling ko ang yaman yaman ko

Bridge:

Ang dami ko pang sinabi
Tungkol sa aking sarili
Lahat ng yun 'di na bale
Ikaw lang ang importante

Yakapin mo ako
Lunurin sa iyo
Sa loob ng 'yong mga bisig
Dama ko ang 'yong pag-ibig

Yakapin mo ako
Gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako...

[Repeat Chorus]

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/i/itchyworms/#share

Banat

Kahapon, habang pinapaypayan ako ni Happy...

Happy: Sabi nila sobra daw pagaasikaso mo saken.
Ako: O? hehe
Happy: Di nila alam, inalipin mo ang puso ko.
Ako: hahahahaha *sabay kinileg*
Happy: *nagpapaypay pa din saken*
Ako: *kinikilig pa din*


Ang sweet nameeeeeeeeeeen hahahaha

PETIKS!

I am here at work. I reported almost an hour late haha

Right now, I am on shift with 2 practicumers and one newly hired. So far, everything is fine. Not busy and almost nothing to do. It's been a long time since I have been in a duty like this.

Ahhhh..... relaxing! :))

Petiks day, I hope today would end just like this :)

GOOD MORNING, PIPS :)

P.S. I am still coughing. *ubo*ubooooooo*

Damn This Cough!

UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
UBO!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

UBO!
UBO!
UBO!

Roller Coaster Job

CRAZY!

I am still lucky that I do not have to do a weird and scary job like the one I saw on youtube trying out all the intimidating roller coasters in theme parks everywhere! Geeeezzzzzzz! I can't imagine myself on those horrifying rides and doing it for a living. I still love my job. TG :)

Click these links for the videos :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ioyWgYNb0-E&feature=fvwrel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LDprGr93_XI&feature=relmfu

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iW19JNICpCg&feature=fvwrel

also, visit www.themeparkreview.com 

The Princess is Now Not a Princess

I was raised by my grandmother when I was growing up, same with my eldest brother. My parents are separated and my mother had to work overseas to be a good provider. I would say that my brother and I were lucky enough to be sent to a reputable private school since we started out studying. My family did not allow us to work while studying for the reason that they wanted us to focus entirely on studying. We had to focus on studying which also meant that my grandmother did not want us to worry about household chores. So all the dishwashes and the housecleaning and the laundry and bed-making and fixing this and that and cooking and everything, WE WERE FREE NOT TO DO. Although from time to time, my brother and I did some household tasks but mostly, it included 90% of playing around when we were kids. Even when we reached college, we were still the lucky ones (or the BUM - truth be told) at home. My mom and my grandmother used to say, "Kawawa naman ung mga anak ko. Pagod sa school. Sige na, kumain na kayo. Aral mabuti ha? Ako na maghuhugas ng plato." Something like that. But of course, when we grew up, sometimes we helped out washing dishes but we did not come to the point that we were obliged to clean the house or go to the market, etc etc. My grandmother loved us so much she just wanted to do everything for us. My mom also, as much as she can, she'd do everything and would just ask for help if she is already tired. That is how I grew up. Being serviced and treated like a little princess. Even until now that I am about to hit my 30th year.

Now, I think things would have to change because although I still live in the same house that I have been living at since birth, I was confronted earlier by my grandmother to take responsibility and be helpful at home. Maybe because she cannot move anymore like she used to because of her illness. And my Aunt is blaming her for raising me up like this (lazy, bum, very dependent, irresponsible, immature... basically, u-n-r-e-l-i-a-b-l-e). But you know, I love how my Nanay raised me. I love how she used to wake me up everyday when I was still going to school. I love how she used to scream my name everytime she wakes me up but after 10 minutes or so, I am still on bed :) I love it when she tells me to eat even if I keep on telling her that I am not hungry. I love it when she used to make up my bed. I love it when she cleans up the room even if I tell her not to. I love it when she tells me to eat with her even if I told her that I just had eaten. I love her way of telling me to leave the dishes alone because she knows I am tired studying/working all day. I love her babying me all the time. Although sometimes, I am annoyed of her "paulit-ulit-ulit-ulit" reminders to do this, eat that, take vitamins, put on slippers, etc etc., I love her with all my heart. Maybe she is guilty of not teaching us.. not teaching me how to properly do the laundry, cook sinigang or even adobo, be lady enough to sweep the floor of my own room, how to save money, I do not blame her. I do not blame them. I just know that did it for love. It's their way of letting us feel that they love us very much, they want to take all the pain and all the hardships as much as they could. And now that I am all grown up, I do not know how to cook, I do not hate them for that. I do not even dislike them for raising me up like this.

Anyway, because I want to take away their burden of being blamed about me being a princess (BUM) at home, starting this week, I would have to take care of my dirty clothes, fold and iron them after, wake up earlier and find things to do at home, sleep shorter and I don't know what else. Maybe run errands? Go there, go back there, buy this and buy that.

Just thinking about doing a lot of things terrifies me. I think I will pass out, lose consciousness or something. But I have to do this. Maybe it is also His way of preparing me of a life without Nanay soon, I dunno. Maybe this is gonna be my short and instant training on how to live an independent life. (Although I should have done this way before). Well, I also think I should start learning to do house chores if I am thinking of settling down soon. I don't want Happy starving to death while I am just watching TV (or maybe doing my coloring book), dow'want Happy stink because he had been wearing the same set of clothes for the whole week. I do not want that for my family. 

Okay... Okay... I am just a bit emotional about this. It is going to be a big move for me to accept that I am now an adult. And being an adult, I have to do my own laundry starting this week.

CAPTURED

my wedding song listen here

Lyrics | Christian Bautista lyrics - Captured lyrics

One Decade with You

Okay… This was the TV program spoof of what my brother found out as an informative Biblical program which Bro. Eli hosted. Bubble Gang’s was Ang Dating Doon, the real one is Ang Dating Daan. Having my brother let me watched this, it started then that I became amused with the Bible and God’s words. I was 18 at that time – year 2000.

It did not last long, I decided to join the Church that Bro. Eli is preaching about. The first persons who knew about my conversion were my college boyfriend and my brother, who I knew would respect my decision despite of the fact that they did not really understand why. I was 19 years old when I turned my back away from Catholicism. At nineteen, my life changed forever.

From then til now, once in a while, I stumble and fall. But God has always been kind and has always been understanding and forgiving. He never left me in any instance. Even on those times that I thought I was all alone.

I still thank HIM for hitting my 1^st decade in the Church. As always, I admit that I am still way far from being the best child He could call. But I am trying to be good, the best way I can. I just pray that He’d still guide my path and walk me through. I can never make it without Him. Nobody could.

So, here… For everything and everything and everything else, my endless gratitude to THE ONE who always sees the good in me… to THE ONE who knows me more than anyone else does… to THE ONE who takes care of my loved ones… to THE ONE who wants the best for me… to THE ONE who is the reason of my being… I can never ever make it without YOU. Please do not let me go. Thank YOU for the life I have.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOREVER!

I HAPPENED TO SEE THIS RAP MTV FOR BRO ELI AND BRO DANIEL. YOU MIGHT ALSO WANNA WATCH AND LISTEN. CLICK HERE

this is Bro. Eli's guesting in Bubble Gang

SALAMAT PO!

He Loves Me

Happy loves me :)

He just made a bold move, a bold proof that he is really serious.

Anywhere for you, Babe :)

"Miracles are what bring you back to me every time."

-Noah, The Notebook

I Feel Sad for Nanay

She must have been going through the hardest.

Just today, she gave up and took all her medicines. I mean, all her medicines for the whole week. Her mon-tu-wed-thu-fri-sat-sun medicine box was all freshly refilled with the medications she is taking. All of a sudden, people at home saw it empty. When she was asked, she said that it was spilled. Soon, she started throwing up and excreting waste. She tried to overdose herself.

Thank God, nothing serious happened. Good thing, my family was staying at home when this happened.

Now, she is trying to sleep. I hear her cough once in a while.

I pray that she get well soon.

:(

It Will Rain - Bruno Mars

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

watch and listen here

Dear Happy,

There are a lot of beautiful places in the world that I would like to see and visit with you someday. But just thinking about how expensive travelling is, I am discouraged. Not that I do not want us to spend but practically speaking, money could be used in important things more than leisure.

So right now, I am just contented being with you even if it is just walking along the busy street of Manila, riding tricycle, jeepney and pedicab, eating and poking squidballs, and other simple things in life.

Anywhere with you is more than enough. What matters most is that we are together.

Work3x

Work has been half okay and half not.

One of the okays is that I am our Department's Employee of the Month (yey!)

One of the not okays is disrespectful people at work (boo!)

I want to have a break :( but lack of manning in our Department does not allow me to do so. *sighest sigh* What to do?

:(

Hypocrite and Liar

He is shameless! Such a liar and a big bunch of hypocrite!

I wish justice prevails. If not now, I know someday, you will get what's yours.

Dedicated to My Happy

let 'em say we're crazy. don't care about that. Put your hand in my hand, Baby, don't ever look back :)

WIFI

Now that we got wifi at home, oh my gosh! This means I'ma have eyebags soon!

Please... NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha

Dreaming of a Better Life Someday Soon

I have a long list of “wanna have” and “drooling for” but budget has been tight lately and I only have “first things first!” entertained.

I am saving up for a very important goal that I have to reach in about a year or so. This is very serious and I am really looking forward that someday soon, with God’s help, this will happen

Really aiming for it. Just thinking about it makes me so excited

Stereo Hearts

I am posting this! J

Craving for

Baked oyster with cheese

Sushi

Pizza

Chocolate almond

Sweet fresh milk

Lobster

Spicy dried squid

Kimchi

Happy - Wedding

Happy attended his friend’s wedding celebration. Happy is very happy for his friend. We will nickname the friend as “Catchan”. Happy is very touched having Catchan still stick around during and after Happy went through his roughest moments. Some people really tend to value friendship despite numerous trying situations pass by. Catchan deserves to have a good life because he is kind. He deserves good things in this life.

Congratulations to Catchan! May God bless him and his family!

***

Happy Heart

Nov14

 There isn’t much more to it but lemme give you the classic romance flick explanation: IT IS JUST MEANT TO BE.

After twenty nine years and x number of failed attempts, he is finally here. We needed no words. He knew it, I knew it. There is more than that inexplicable attraction; it’s the friendship and the madness, all the sensible and senseless, the major and baloney stuff, those good and not-so-good experiences that accumulated over the years, they all put the last touches so we could walk down the road where our paths would cross.

I am happy now that he is here. Things before might have been wounding, I almost did not make it, but here we are now. An almost fairy tale that I have fancied for the longest time.

While I thought that time and distance had taken him away from my world forever, here he is, beside me. An answered prayer. A sudden feeling of contentment.

“May I be a companion and ally of the man I love. May we accomplish everything we have to accomplish --- together.” –By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, Paulo Coelho

HAPPY, THIS IS FOR YOU :)

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

New Zealand

These are some photos of New Zealand and the map and the flag. I am simply fascinated with the country.

STRONG "NO" TO ABORTION!

Say NO to " ABORTION ".....!!!

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ALL LIFE IS SACRED

>> A FETUS CAN FEEL

Even though it may not be fully formed, a fetus in the second trimester is still able to feel pain.

>> ABORTION IS MURDER

That's right - you heard correctly! ABORTION IS MURDER! And I'll bet if you asked an unborn fetus whether he fancies the idea of being murdered, it would tell you to at least wait until it was old enough to fight back.

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Lessons a Manny Pacquiao can learn from a non-politician Kuya Daniel Razon

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When and if Manny Pacquiao remains as an ordinary citizen and follows the vision he set for himself to achieve – that is, to help many poor Filipinos out of their miseries, he may have something to be proud of. And this feat may at least be compared to the way life has been going for Kuya Daniel Razon – best known for his massive public service endeavors, minus a public government office role (even though he won a seat).

Manny Pacquiao’s victory makes every Filipino proud. He has established a good sportsman’s stature all over the globe. He has shown his generosity and kindness by sharing some of his take home money to his fellow Filipinos.

However, recent reports have it that he is now inching to earning a place in government, after declaring bid to run as congressman in his hometown. His plans have divided people, with majority clamoring for him to stay the same man he’s been known by people – a boxer and an ordinary citizen.

One internationally-renowned writer, who commented on Manny Pacquiao’s bid to run in the 2010 Elections, calls on the international boxing sensation that being a politician is is not the way to ending our society’s misery and poverty and to helping many people. That writer is F. Sionil Jose, whose Philippine Star article may be read here.

Like some people with the means and resources to help, Manny thought the key to realizing his dream of rendering true public service is by earning a seat in government. And this brings to mind what Kuya Daniel Razon once said. He stressed that a government position is not a prerequisite to do public service. His advocacy, Isang Araw Lang (Just One Day), proves that there are a million ways to provide assistance for our indigent countrymen
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Kuya Daniel Razon, best-known for his numerous public service efforts

Thursday – Off

After days of gruel, tediousness, and exhaustion at work, I finally got my off day! Weeeeee J So here’s the to do list:

• Wake up at 10am
• Go to New Zealand Agency in Mandaluyong at 12nn
• Meet Happy at 3pm
• Visit National Center of Arts and Archives at 4pm
• Go to Church at 6pm
• Home at 9pm
• Sleep at 10pm

Hectic! …So, bye for now. Au revoir! ;p

Parang Panaginip

Haaayyyyyy........

:)

Big Chunk of Tidbits

Number 1:

Work was pretty exhausting recently. One of my colleagues left the company and our department is literally crawling its way to get through each day. There is 6 of us left, while in fact, there should be 8. Most of us calls in sick so when that happens, one has to work double (or triple) load of tasks for each shift. It has been rough and draining. I rarely do not complain about work but this time, I say I am really worn out. Well, it is not that I want to quit working here. It is just I wish our team would be complete again. You know, that HR would “finally” give us additional staff so we do not end up all beaten up everyday.

My manager told us that next year, hopefully, the team would be completed and things will get better for everybody. We are all crossing our fingers to that.

Meanwhile, tomorrow would be another day. May God bless us all.

Number 2:

At long last, the PANKAB Cooperative that I joined in, which is actually affiliated with my work, just disappointed us again. Like that. POOF! Our savings are gone :-/

I still have something like more or less P50,000 with them but sad to say, some corrupt and irresponsible people enjoyed our hard earned cash that we entrusted them. I feel really bad about it but knowing that my colleagues lost more than that amount is much more distressing. We are talking about figures from P100,000 up to P500,000. More to that, there are people who resigned from our company months (or year/s) ago who have not claimed their money yet. And bad news for them, they will not get theirs neither.

Thinking about suggesting us to sue Co-op officials? Well, that… I dunno… Personally, I, alone, do not have any guts filing this case to the court. It is too much to handle for me. But should there be any group filing anything against the Co-op officials, I would definitely be with them! I would absolutely support them.

Then again, with or without the P50,000 something that I strenuously saved up, life still goes on. May God bless us all.

Number 3:

I am planning to sell my BlackBerry phone for a very cheap price. But I am just not so sure if I am already decided to do that in the next few days.

Thinking about selling it for P7000… Would anybody take it?

Number 4:

So the love of my life, whom we will nickname Happy from now on, loves to read books. Sometimes, we get to walk around the mall and we always always never fail to visit bookstores. I love it that we both like books. Although he is more of a learner and I am more of a not-learner, I am still glad that we get to share some “book time” together.

Powerbooks and National Bookstore are good but he prefers Booksale more. Bookstores which sell second hand books are more to his liking. He reads history, trivia books, language tutorial, Philippine literature, Bible atlases, and those books which I do not usually care to look at. But now, after browsing fictional (drama) books, uhmmm.. yah, I am also taking a glance at those books on “Filipino Reference” shelves because of him. Though I have not gotten myself any book to read for the past few months now, I say just being with him in a bookstore is enough for me.

Oh! Ahmmmm.. I am reading 101 Things You Didn’t Know about Einstein: Sex, Science, and the Secret of the Universe. This is his. He let me borrow it. Nice huh? J It is entertaining and surprising. No love quotes that I encountered so far but I say, it is a good book to read.

Lemme give you some trivia (haha). Did you know that Einstein had a violin that he called “Lina”? …and did you know that one of his wives was a distant cousin? Her name was Elsa (I forgot the last name)… and this, Albert Einstein did not believe in the theory of evolution. He quoted that “God does not play dice with the universe.” He was known to believe in a general order of the universe. (high five!)

Number 5:

I developed some little rashes on my chest. They are not a lot actually but they are itchy and red, kinda scattered in the middle part of my chest. There are moments that the rashes are disturbingly itchy but then, I am forcing myself not to scratch them off. I am planning to go to a skin doctor to have this checked. I just do not have time. Geez! So how? :-/

Number 6:

Nanay has been sleeping most of the time. My heart breaks a little each time I hear her saying that her head aches, her legs hurt, she needs menthol oil rubbed on her back, etc. etc. She does not complain much that is why I know that when she says she is hurting, she means she is really hurting.

I admit that lately, I have not been having time to talk to her, check her out, bond with her. Been busy at work and when I am at home, I am all exhausted, I just go to my room and sleep. It is embarassing having to act this way. I just hope things will not be too late for me to get the chance to take care of her.

Number 7:

I pray to God that I could be a better person this time. I am celebrating my 10^th year anniversary in our Church. Yey! J

Number 8:

It was my youngest brother’s birthday on October 29 and I was really planning of making a birthday post for him here on my blog. Same with our eldest brother’s birthday on November 5. But you know, I got all busy and lazy all at the same time so I just ended up greeting both of them on my Nov.5 post hehe well, I-AM-SO-RRY. Haha

Number 9:

I just handed over the contracts that I signed to Kuya Lolong (my real estate agent) before I left the hotel tonight. I will just wait again for some weeks or perhaps month/s and I will be receiving my permit to move in to my new crib in Imus, Cavite. God willing, I would have to start getting used to writing my address as PhaseX BlockX LotXX The Legian Subdivision, Imus Cavite. Hihihi

I talk too much.

Good night now J

HAPPY HEART :)

I feel hearts are falling all over and sparkling everywhere when I am with you

~insert Chris Brown's With You here~

I have been rising and shining :) Just knowing that you are there simply makes me happy as a clam... like, on cloud nine, you know? :)

Jumping for joy everytime I get to see you, talk to you, be with you.

My town has been painted red. I see rainbow. Grass are greener, sky is brighter.

I am now walking on air :) finally :)

I thank Him for giving you to me.

***

^_^

happy birthday posts :)

to my kuya and to bunsoy Shouta

COMPLAINT

I just finished writing a formal letter of complaint against a discriminating five star hotel F&B manager.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

My hands feel so cold.

I am going home now.

I Want to Lock You Up

i want to lock you up and guard you tight so you'd just stay by my side all my life and no one can take you away from me.

Then again, I don't think I have to do that :) You'll stay with me, anyway :)

.

Work Out Abs

I am supposed to be on my 3rd day working out my lower abdomen. I have been giving myself 100 sit ups everyday since the day before yesterday. But today, I am so full, I am gonna pass the hundred sit ups. I am not sure if I would do 200 tomorrow. My mind says "maybe not".

I wish I could continue doing this coz it will really work out my bulging abdomen. So bulgy, it looks like an oldie who has layers of tummy fats. (okay, I kinda exaggerated on that part)

So, no exercise today. Only full-time eating and now, time to go to bed.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

HOW-ARE-YOU-DOIN'? :))

HI, EVERYBODY! 'SSUP? :)

Lately, I have been busy doing this and that and these and those :) And internet connection at home is quite complicated and surprisingly, I have not felt the mood to surf the net. 'Been also busy at work and been busy trying to be good, you know, making up for the stupid things I did when I "carelessly" lost some of my sanity. Well, I am still trying to redeem myself but you know, God has been very patient despite of me being all that stubborn and unreasonable.

Well, anyways, I got myself an iPod which I call "Patch" :) My friends at work are enjoying using the application of PopBooth. I actually have an album on my new facebook account (add me! haha) with us goofing around using the cool photo app ;) I have this PopBooth photo as my profile picture. Nice, huh? hihi

Japanese Class ended on the last Wednesday of September. It has been fun and fulfilling but you know, some good things never last (yeah, right! boooo) So, I am now again just a hotelier. No more "slash" part-time college instructor. But who knows, maybe soon again, I just dunno.

Oh yah, look at my sweet nephew. He's grown big now. Thank God for taking care of him :)

Funny, we have a guest here in the hotel named "Glover". I suddenly thought of Super Glover

Haha. I just read the text. It is "Grover" not Glover. I thought it it was Glover. hihi

And lastly, thanks for leaving comments and advice on my site. I appreciate it :)

Got to go now. (haha I am still at work)

Kay Tagal Kang Hinintay

I NEED THYME

Yes, thyme.

(you know, the herb, thyme? hehe)

Where's the You I've Come to Know?

You used to be fine. You were happy then. Even if things did not work out all for you, you were fine. What happened, Baby? ...I miss your smile. I miss you smile.

Where is the you I have come to know? Where is the you that your friends turn to whenever they feel down? Where is the you who appreciated life even if you only had the simplest things? When are you coming back? Will you be back? Can you still come back?

People miss you, you know? I also miss you... more than anybody else could ever know.

.

PANDA

I AM SURE, YOU ARE GONNA GET SURPRISED SEEING A PANDA WHILE WAITING FOR THE TRAIN. SOMETHING LIKE THIS? HAHA

LOOK! IT HAS UMBRELLA, TOO! AND YES, A SHOPPING BAG ;)

Confession of an Unworthy Christian

Revelation 2: 2-5

‘'I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot bear with those who are evil, but have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and found them to be false. I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name's sake, and you have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. If not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent."

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I embraced Christianity since 2001. At 19, my life changed forever. I had been gladly following His words despite many people’s objection and criticism. I do not mind their disapproval. After all, it is staying on to His words that I am concerned about. And although it is not easy to be His servant, I am staying because I would want to have His promise of eternity. That even life here on earth has not been good and fair, He will save us and give us an everlasting happiness in heaven. I have always longed for that. I always dreamed of reaching heaven.

It has been 10 years now since then. But unlike before, I have gone cold. Sad to say, little by little, I am being pulled in by worldly things. I am messing up. I am falling and failing. It seems so hard to be redeemed. I keep on fighting against myself that even until now, I am on constant struggle.

Now that I am slowly dragged away, my faith seems to be getting weaker. How I wish I could go back to who I used to be. The girl who was contented on what she simply has and even thankful for what she don’t. I pray I could still see that person. I pray it won’t be too late for recovery.

I am praying for His guidance and mercy for me not to completely turn astray and lead me back to where I am supposed to be, on His side. My heart is always weary, worried that one of these ordinary days, I might see myself in so much distance away from my refuge. I am always praying that He’d still keep me and never give up on me. I keep on asking Him to bless me back the passion to serve Him, despite and inspite of how difficult life has been turning out, regardless if I get or do not get what I am asking for, no matter what trials I am facing. I pray for His understanding and continuous compassion that even if I am falling short, He would still keep me in His shield.

God has always been good. Never an instance that He got something wrong and slipped up. If in anyway, I am messing up right now, it is completely my fault. I am the one who is wrong. Point fingers on me. It is all me. Then again, God is still kind that even if I am the one to be blamed, He still grants me with a way out. I still have my friends and parents in faith. Greater than true blood family, their concern is more than just a simple empathy. They are gifts from God. And I am one lucky unworthy Christian to have been blessed by these precious gifts. They also want me back with them, following God and Jesus Christ the right way.

I pray to see myself again in the near future, may God will, serving Him with joyful heart, contented with what I have and who I am - just like before. For even how insignificant I seem to be, this unworthy Christian nonetheless believe that God is compassionate enough to give second chances. I just have to prove that I am worth the pardon.

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“Ayaw ka namin mawala.

Sana ganun ka din.”

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Why are We Still Friends?

We do almost everything That lovers do And that why's it's hard Just to be friends with you And everytime your heart is broken By the fool I want you to know That it hurts me too It's hard to wipe your tears away Knowing you should be with me, tell me Chorus: Why, why are we still friends When everything says We should be more than what we are And tell me why Everytime I find someone that I like We always end up being just friends Verse 2 I would hate for you to find somebody new Who you really love Cause it could mean losing you But am I a fool girl not to say If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway Somehow someway I've got to choose Got to choose no matter if it's win or lose (repeat chorus) Bridge: I don't want to be like your brother I don't want to be your best friend I only want to be your lover When will this end? If I told you that I want to be in your life? If you could be the woman in mine

My Wednesday

Today has been a long day. Morning classes from 9am – 12nn. LRT ride was not that smooth. Gentlemen these days have been turning out into not (so) gentlemen. Not caring enough to let a sleepy lady seat in place of theirs. From EDSA station to Tayuman Station, I kept on standing infront of that guy who seemed to be 5x stronger than me. Plus, that annoying guy on my right who kept of picking his nose. Gross, right? Eiw. Good thing, Ptch kept me in company and we were sharing good music all through out the train ride.

School was good. My students are having fun and me too J Our classes are almost finished. We only got 3 more meetings and that would be it. We were around 10 minutes early when we ended today’s class. I was hungry and was hurrying up to go to Hotel so I could have lunch right away. I have gone weaker at the train. This time, I stood up from Balintawak to Pedro Gil Station. I was fighting the thought that anytime, I was about to collapse. Thank God I did not faint and catched public attention.

At work, people are still the same. And when I say people, I mean pleasant people and annoying people. Yes, they are still the same, did not change much and I suppose, annoying people are getting more and more annoying. They put their nose too much in other person’s life. They are just too much to figure out. They are really irritating!

On duty, whole shift had been very busy, hectic, tiring. Calls almost did not stop, reservations, inquiries, interruption from my colleagues had been frequently coming in and all. I was not even able to check my Facebook on my computer! Haha THAT BUSY! I tell you!

After work, I had a small chitchat  with my colleague about those nosy people who keep on making fun of other people’s misery, hitting people below the belt, rubbing humiliation on people’s faces. Just what fun to they get in doing that? True or not, you should mind your own business! For goodness sake! I got a lot to say about this but few words would be enough for a wise man. You know what I mean. But mind you, what comes around, goes around. You would get what’s yours. Maybe not now, not soon, not later. But I am sure, you’ll get it someday.

I am ending the day with a little bitter felings towards those annoying people at work who seem to be seeing themselves so perfect. I just have to let this out. After this, I need to sleep well. Tomorrow is a big day J It’s gonna be a big day. I am ready to go J

Just For Laughs - Lease Sell (Listen - Beyonce)

 Lease sell
To the song here in my harp
 A melody a star
But can complea
Lease sell umm umm
To the star from dvd
It’s only pig guinea to fight release

 Oh the time has c*nt formy dreams to be hurled
They will not be Bush a second term
Into your owl
Owl can chew wall
Lease sell
Hell hell

Lease sell
 I am along at the claws loss
Im not in home in my old home
And I cry and cry
To sell what’s on my mind
You shoot Hefner
Ahhh No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin

 Im more than what
Your maid Tomi
I found the moist
 You gave Tomi
And now I got to f*** my owl…

 You should Hef… Lease sell
There is someone here inside
Someone I tow’led had dried
So long ago

 Oh im screaming ahhhh
In my dreams to be her
They will not be Bush a second term
Into your owl
Owl can chew wall
Lease sell Hell hell

Lease sell
 I am along at the claws loss
Im not in home in my old home
And I cry and cry
To sell what’s on my mind

You shoot Hefner
Ahhh No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin
Im more than what
Your maid Tomi I found the moist
You gave Tomi
And now I got to f*** my owl…

 I don’t know where I belong
Well I am movie Ahhh
If you DUHHHHH
If you ahhhhhh

 Lease sell
To the song here in my harp
 A melody a star
But I will complea
No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin
Im more than what
Your maid Tomi
I found the moist
 You think you gave to me
And now I got to f*** my owl…
…my owl…