I NEED THYME

Yes, thyme.

(you know, the herb, thyme? hehe)

Where's the You I've Come to Know?

You used to be fine. You were happy then. Even if things did not work out all for you, you were fine. What happened, Baby? ...I miss your smile. I miss you smile.

Where is the you I have come to know? Where is the you that your friends turn to whenever they feel down? Where is the you who appreciated life even if you only had the simplest things? When are you coming back? Will you be back? Can you still come back?

People miss you, you know? I also miss you... more than anybody else could ever know.

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PANDA

I AM SURE, YOU ARE GONNA GET SURPRISED SEEING A PANDA WHILE WAITING FOR THE TRAIN. SOMETHING LIKE THIS? HAHA

LOOK! IT HAS UMBRELLA, TOO! AND YES, A SHOPPING BAG ;)

Confession of an Unworthy Christian

Revelation 2: 2-5

‘'I know your works, your toil and your patient endurance, and how you cannot bear with those who are evil, but have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and found them to be false. I know you are enduring patiently and bearing up for my name's sake, and you have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. If not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent."

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I embraced Christianity since 2001. At 19, my life changed forever. I had been gladly following His words despite many people’s objection and criticism. I do not mind their disapproval. After all, it is staying on to His words that I am concerned about. And although it is not easy to be His servant, I am staying because I would want to have His promise of eternity. That even life here on earth has not been good and fair, He will save us and give us an everlasting happiness in heaven. I have always longed for that. I always dreamed of reaching heaven.

It has been 10 years now since then. But unlike before, I have gone cold. Sad to say, little by little, I am being pulled in by worldly things. I am messing up. I am falling and failing. It seems so hard to be redeemed. I keep on fighting against myself that even until now, I am on constant struggle.

Now that I am slowly dragged away, my faith seems to be getting weaker. How I wish I could go back to who I used to be. The girl who was contented on what she simply has and even thankful for what she don’t. I pray I could still see that person. I pray it won’t be too late for recovery.

I am praying for His guidance and mercy for me not to completely turn astray and lead me back to where I am supposed to be, on His side. My heart is always weary, worried that one of these ordinary days, I might see myself in so much distance away from my refuge. I am always praying that He’d still keep me and never give up on me. I keep on asking Him to bless me back the passion to serve Him, despite and inspite of how difficult life has been turning out, regardless if I get or do not get what I am asking for, no matter what trials I am facing. I pray for His understanding and continuous compassion that even if I am falling short, He would still keep me in His shield.

God has always been good. Never an instance that He got something wrong and slipped up. If in anyway, I am messing up right now, it is completely my fault. I am the one who is wrong. Point fingers on me. It is all me. Then again, God is still kind that even if I am the one to be blamed, He still grants me with a way out. I still have my friends and parents in faith. Greater than true blood family, their concern is more than just a simple empathy. They are gifts from God. And I am one lucky unworthy Christian to have been blessed by these precious gifts. They also want me back with them, following God and Jesus Christ the right way.

I pray to see myself again in the near future, may God will, serving Him with joyful heart, contented with what I have and who I am - just like before. For even how insignificant I seem to be, this unworthy Christian nonetheless believe that God is compassionate enough to give second chances. I just have to prove that I am worth the pardon.

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“Ayaw ka namin mawala.

Sana ganun ka din.”

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Why are We Still Friends?

We do almost everything That lovers do And that why's it's hard Just to be friends with you And everytime your heart is broken By the fool I want you to know That it hurts me too It's hard to wipe your tears away Knowing you should be with me, tell me Chorus: Why, why are we still friends When everything says We should be more than what we are And tell me why Everytime I find someone that I like We always end up being just friends Verse 2 I would hate for you to find somebody new Who you really love Cause it could mean losing you But am I a fool girl not to say If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway Somehow someway I've got to choose Got to choose no matter if it's win or lose (repeat chorus) Bridge: I don't want to be like your brother I don't want to be your best friend I only want to be your lover When will this end? If I told you that I want to be in your life? If you could be the woman in mine

My Wednesday

Today has been a long day. Morning classes from 9am – 12nn. LRT ride was not that smooth. Gentlemen these days have been turning out into not (so) gentlemen. Not caring enough to let a sleepy lady seat in place of theirs. From EDSA station to Tayuman Station, I kept on standing infront of that guy who seemed to be 5x stronger than me. Plus, that annoying guy on my right who kept of picking his nose. Gross, right? Eiw. Good thing, Ptch kept me in company and we were sharing good music all through out the train ride.

School was good. My students are having fun and me too J Our classes are almost finished. We only got 3 more meetings and that would be it. We were around 10 minutes early when we ended today’s class. I was hungry and was hurrying up to go to Hotel so I could have lunch right away. I have gone weaker at the train. This time, I stood up from Balintawak to Pedro Gil Station. I was fighting the thought that anytime, I was about to collapse. Thank God I did not faint and catched public attention.

At work, people are still the same. And when I say people, I mean pleasant people and annoying people. Yes, they are still the same, did not change much and I suppose, annoying people are getting more and more annoying. They put their nose too much in other person’s life. They are just too much to figure out. They are really irritating!

On duty, whole shift had been very busy, hectic, tiring. Calls almost did not stop, reservations, inquiries, interruption from my colleagues had been frequently coming in and all. I was not even able to check my Facebook on my computer! Haha THAT BUSY! I tell you!

After work, I had a small chitchat  with my colleague about those nosy people who keep on making fun of other people’s misery, hitting people below the belt, rubbing humiliation on people’s faces. Just what fun to they get in doing that? True or not, you should mind your own business! For goodness sake! I got a lot to say about this but few words would be enough for a wise man. You know what I mean. But mind you, what comes around, goes around. You would get what’s yours. Maybe not now, not soon, not later. But I am sure, you’ll get it someday.

I am ending the day with a little bitter felings towards those annoying people at work who seem to be seeing themselves so perfect. I just have to let this out. After this, I need to sleep well. Tomorrow is a big day J It’s gonna be a big day. I am ready to go J

Just For Laughs - Lease Sell (Listen - Beyonce)

 Lease sell
To the song here in my harp
 A melody a star
But can complea
Lease sell umm umm
To the star from dvd
It’s only pig guinea to fight release

 Oh the time has c*nt formy dreams to be hurled
They will not be Bush a second term
Into your owl
Owl can chew wall
Lease sell
Hell hell

Lease sell
 I am along at the claws loss
Im not in home in my old home
And I cry and cry
To sell what’s on my mind
You shoot Hefner
Ahhh No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin

 Im more than what
Your maid Tomi
I found the moist
 You gave Tomi
And now I got to f*** my owl…

 You should Hef… Lease sell
There is someone here inside
Someone I tow’led had dried
So long ago

 Oh im screaming ahhhh
In my dreams to be her
They will not be Bush a second term
Into your owl
Owl can chew wall
Lease sell Hell hell

Lease sell
 I am along at the claws loss
Im not in home in my old home
And I cry and cry
To sell what’s on my mind

You shoot Hefner
Ahhh No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin
Im more than what
Your maid Tomi I found the moist
You gave Tomi
And now I got to f*** my owl…

 I don’t know where I belong
Well I am movie Ahhh
If you DUHHHHH
If you ahhhhhh

 Lease sell
To the song here in my harp
 A melody a star
But I will complea
No I don’t believe in youth
 You don’t know what im feelin
Im more than what
Your maid Tomi
I found the moist
 You think you gave to me
And now I got to f*** my owl…
…my owl…

PEOPLE LOVE TO TALK

"A hypocrite is someone who views another person as being a worse sinner than them self." 

People tend to be nosy with other person’s life. They meddle too much like they do not have their own problems. I hate it! They intrude in other people’s business yet, when they are done the same, they fume with big, red, hot anger.

Why would you do something bad to someone if in the first place, you do not want that thing happening to you? They just do not get it! Kick someone else’s butt and feel pleased and when someone kicked your butt, you get mad. See? You do to others but  you do not want to experience it. The heck!

I just hope they won’t reap those awful things that they keep on sowing. They don’t want to feel how much it wounds. Believe me, they don’t.

It is upsetting  if you're gonna be victim of these cruel people who  would keep on judging and defining you by the things they see and the things “they thought” that they know. I just hate it! I hate what they are doing!

May God let you realize that those things you do and say and think are really offending and unethical in every sense of it. I just wish you wake up and stop what you are doing. It is really wrong. I hope you just mind your own business.

Terrible people. You make it hard to breathe.

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I don't know who ever made the ridiculous statement that “sticks and stones may hurt my bones, but words will never hurt me”; but words can be very painful. The most painful wounds in life are those inflicted by a careless or cruel person's words. It hurts bad when someone whom we look up to hurts us; but it hurts even worse when we unintentionally hurt someone who looks up to us. 

It's been said: “Believe none of what you hear, and only half of what you see. I like that.” The facts are nearly always distorted as they pass from one ear to another. What began as a hold of the hand usually ends up turning into adultery by the time it reaches enough ears. People love to talk, gossip, slander, and tear down. It's in our nature to destroy ourselves. That's the human race. The more we hear about peace, the more war happens and innocent people are murdered. There will never be lasting genuine peace until Jesus Christ reigns from Jerusalem over the whole earth during the 1,000-year millennium. Until then, people will continue to hurt people, as they do best. http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Believer's%20Corner/gossiping_believers.htm