To My Future David Aames

 It has always been you, Happy :) 

Thank God for the gift of love.

More years together, yes?

I LOVE YOU TO THE BONES. 

ALAM MO YAN!

Letter From the Past

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my wedding song listen here

Lyrics | Christian Bautista lyrics - Captured lyrics

HAPPY HEART :)

I feel hearts are falling all over and sparkling everywhere when I am with you

~insert Chris Brown's With You here~

I have been rising and shining :) Just knowing that you are there simply makes me happy as a clam... like, on cloud nine, you know? :)

Jumping for joy everytime I get to see you, talk to you, be with you.

My town has been painted red. I see rainbow. Grass are greener, sky is brighter.

I am now walking on air :) finally :)

I thank Him for giving you to me.

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Why-do-I-suddenly-want-a-child

I've always been the kind of girl who thought she might never want or have kids. I enjoy that I can be selfish, I like to sleep, I live my life how I want. I have a maternal instinct with friends and family, and they know it but I always thought I was too much of a control freak to raise a kid.

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I don't have a boyfriend, let alone a baby's daddy, but lately I have a really, really strong desire for a child. It seems to have come out of nowhere. I've never felt anything like this and I'm scared of these feelings/hormones/emotions. Could this just be a temporary hormonal thing? I thought the biological clock started ticking closer to late thirties- am I just fertile right now?

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Any anecdotes, advice or understanding would be greatly appreciated as I don't understand what is happening to me.

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One last note...The idea of being pregnant or giving birth is not appealing at all, but the mother idea is. I've had dreams about taking care of other people's kids and met a single dad recently who I found myself very attracted to. I thought that helping him raise his child would be really wonderful. This all feels foreign and scary, please help me understand!! Thanks!

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Ellay's Baby? Why Not.

I attended our Thanksgiving Service today and the topic was about how important are the Lambs of God in the Church and that taking care of them means loving God.

Basically, the topic said that God's servants must take care of their children (or also termed in the Bible, lambs). Taking care not just means giving the kids material things they need but also being concern about their spiritual welfare. Doing this gives you an extra shot of making it to heaven because you are taking care of somebody who will automatically inherit heaven. Yes, those lucky children :) Heaven is theirs :) Matthew 19:14 / 1 Tim 5:1-2 / Jn 21:15 read those.

Well, anyway, I find today's topic very consoling to those parents who are really having a hard time raising up their kids. Just being patient to those kids running around, screaming like there's no tomorrow; those boys and girls growing up... Just now I remember Bro. Daniel said how children on his generation were disciplined even by just a mere look from their father. But now, children are very stubborn. I mean very very stubborn. Parents must be very capable of enduring such kids or else. So, yes, good parents must be given an extra chance. Agree! Agree!

Saying this, being a VERY easy going - careless - laid back person that I am, I admit I am really not into kids. I love my nephew though, but talking about other children, I really do not find them fascinating. I do not hate kids but I do not love them neither. Just fair. Sometimes, I find them cute, most of the time, I do not. Then again, hearing our preachers talk about this topic made me want to have kids (or singular, at least) to take care of. I am really not sure if I am going to be the best mother but I think I am going to be a good one (with God's help).

I do not see myself marrying or having my own family anymore. I also do not picture myself being pregnant and carrying my own child inside my tummy. So I just thought of adopting a child, preferably, a boy, by the age of 33? But then again, I still have 4 more years to think about it over and over and over and over and over.... and over.

But yah, why not? I also want to have an extra chance to go to heaven :)

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I am also reblogging this baby post from my other blogsite

I SAW HIM

March 16, 2011

I saw my baby, my son, in my dream last night. He kinda looked like this baby I googled:

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In my dream, an ex was taking care of my son but I was pretty sure he's not the father. Well anyway, I do not know why he was there but again, he was baby sitting and I was letting him take care of my baby because I was kinda busy working. Then the scene changed. We were in a hospital or something. There was actually no story at all so the actions were kind of confusing because on the later part of my dream, my youngest brother came in the picture. Outdoor, the place had a big shelf of books and the scene looked chaotic, dark clouds, and creepy dawn-like background.

Anyway, my baby was really heartbreakingly cute and there, I loved him so much. He looks similar to the baby on the picture. I cannot say exactly how I am feeling now (and in my dream) but my heart is softened and I feel like melting staring at my son's adorable and lovely little face.

Would I get to see you when I am older? If ever, I believe you will change my life in the best way I could imagine.

Take care there my little son, wherever you are :) I hope to meet you someday if God wills. :)

To Trust and To Love

There is a saying that "The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them." But I am not sure if I could be able to dare myself do that this time. I mean, trusting again - trusting again the things I have and things I feel. I am not sure if I could put my guards down after all that I had gone thru in the name of love. I only have so much left. I cannot let anybody take it away from me.

At the same time, it is difficult to deny that I do want to fall in love again. And to love means giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting them not to. That is the very reason why I am scared. Because last time love hit me, I was hit hard and I was all wrecked... all messed up.

I dunno... the feeling is confusing and I do not want to burden myself with such emotions. I got important things to do. So, I guess I will just go with the flow, not pushing hard because if it is meant to be, it will happen. We will see.

One and Only - Teitur

I've been wishing on a star but I never could have imagined
I would land just where you are after all this lonesome travelling
Took one look in your eye, reached out to hold your hand
This is when I realized what I could never understand

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

So you wanna be my friend, so you wanna be my lover
With you I do confess I can't be one without the other
That was hard for me to say, I hope I said it right
Which ever, come what may, you see I need to know tonight

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

Do you want to play these cards, do you want to lay them down?
Do you want to run away or do you want to stick around?

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

The Zahir

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The Zahir by Paulo Coelho

Dec 14 2009 Published by Alexis under Random Entries

The Zahir, Another Paulo Coelho masterpiece…

Until one morning, I’ll wake up and find I’m thinking about something else, and then I’ll know the worst is over..

My heart may be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing the beauty of life once more..

It happened before, it will happen again, I’m sure.. When someone leaves, it’s because someone is about to arrive. I’ll find love again.

– Paolo Coelho

(Vanilla Sky) Dear My David Aames,

Dear My David Aames,

Hi, Baby. Just letting you know that I am almost bored and jaded waiting for you. I wish you come soon before I lose my mind wondering how you look like, how will we meet, and how will everything happen.

I do not actually have any idea who you will be but I hope you are somebody fierce but gentleman, tall and dark and attractive, hot stuff with noticeable biceps, snob but can hold a long conversation, crazy, charming and in between and you definitely must not be fat! C'mon! Please do not be fat? Haha :)

I wonder how you laugh and how you would stare at my face. I wonder how fair your skin is. I hope you are dark and do not have the same complexion as me. I might look gay! haha. I wonder if you play basketball or you just want to stay indoor if you are free? Whichever, I will spend time with you whatever it is you wanna do. I would want your arms wrap around my waist, Baby, when we walk, just like you do not want me away from you. I wish we would not have any fight over what I believe in some things. I will not force you to believe but I wish it will not be something conflicting. My heart will break if it happens. Do not forget to tell me stories. I would want to know where you came from, how were you raised, your funny moments when you were in highschool, how your first crush looked like, why did you and your first girlfriend break up, how is your relationship with your family, what did you think of me when we were still not this. I would love to hear you talk.

I cannot wait til I touch your face. I look forward everyday who you would be. I have a lot of things to do to you, do for you and do with you. My family would be very delighted to meet you. In fact, they have been also waiting, like me. I will be proud of you. I just hope you are not fat, Honey :) Please please please haha. I do not want you fat. Have you seen my built? You definitely must not be fat! But if you are, hmmmmm..... I will ask you to slim down haha. I will introduce you to my friends, my workmates, and I could also introduce you to strangers :) That is how proud I'ma be when I am with you. I will take care of you, Baby. I would want to learn cooking for you. I would want to be a better person for you. I will love you for sure and this time, no more playing around. I would want to give myself only for you, only to you. I want you to be the one. I hope you are the one.

Until then, I will just be here, trying to wait patiently. I will always long to meet you and hold your hands the soonest. Please do not take long. Though I have a clear picture of you in my mind, if ever you will not be the same as I am thinking, please still let me know that you are the one that I am waiting for. I will not worry because I know that I will know if it is really you.

And one more, promise me that we will watch Vanilla Sky together soon as we know it is us. Ayt? :)

I know I already love you before we meet. I am sure you're gonna knock me off my feet! :)

I'll see you soon,

Your Sofia Serrano

John Mayer - A Love Song for No One

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here oh yeah

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me