Let Me Not Lose Hope

I've anxiously waited for half a year to finally hear a good news. But today, a phonecall broke my heart hearing from the other line that I am not yet cured. Yes, I am still sick. My family and I assumes that I got this from my grandmother who passed away a month before we found out that I actually have this disease.(FYI: consider me non-infectious. The doctor told me that contagious stage had already passed)

I was really looking forward for the doctor to tell me to just take care of my health better and that he'd give me a clearance certificate. I am already through having my daily high dosage medication for six months! ...Learning that I still have this illness weakens my spirit. Day after day, I am feeling useless. My confidence level is going down. I don't know what to do anymore.

I always pray to God to heal me from this. I know that everything happens for a reason. But please God, give me strength. Let me not lose hope.

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The Ellay having lomi snack alone. 

Sorry for all the troubles ne? Kiss kita, Nay :*

Just having her around comforted me. I never dreamed that she would be gone from me. How I love to laugh, talk, eat with Nanay again. I miss her much too much.

I pray to God to be with her again in the next life.

Nanay, see you, ayt? I love you.

Forgiveness

I've also done terrible things. Who am I not to forgive?

Ato Hitotsu

ato hitotsubu no namida de hitokoto no yuuki de negai ga kanau sono toki ga kuru tte
boku wa shinjiteru kara kimi mo akiramenaide ite
nando demo kono ryoute wo ano sora he

* When that time comes, I wish this one tear will be my one courage,
Cause I believe in it, and you must not give up
Cause this both hand will reach the sky

ano hi mo konna natsu datta suna majiri no kaze ga fuiteta
GURANDO no ma uwanosora yuuhi ga mabushikute
dokomade ganbareba ii'n da gyutto kuchibiru wo kamishimeta
sonna toki onaji me wo shita kimi ni deatta'n da

That summer day I feel the wind blowing on me
while lyring to the sand and The bright sky is setting for the sunset
I hold while biting on my lips and I saw you, I hope that I can meet you

sou kantan ja nai kara koso yume wa konna ni kagayaku'n da to
sou ano hi no kimi no kotoba ima demo mune ni dakishimeteru yo

Because its not easy for this dream to shine, so your words that
day, is still in my heart, now I'll embrace it in me

ato hitotsubu no namida de hitokoto no yuuki de negai ga kanau sono toki ga kuru tte
boku wa shinjiteru kara kimi mo akiramenaide ite
nando demo kono ryoute wo ano sora he nobashite sora he

** When that time comes, I wish this one tear will be my one courage,
Cause I believe in it, and you must not give up
Cause this both hand will reach the sky,stretching towards the sky

itsumo doushitemo sunao ni narezu ni jishin nante maru de motezu ni
kousha no uragawa hito me wo ki ni shite aruiteta
dareka to butsukari au koto wo kokoro no dokoka de toozaketa
sore wa hontou no jibun wo miseru no ga kowai dake datta'n da to

I like the confidence of being honest walking at the back of school
with people, but bumping to each other with just
no care at all, is so scary, It's like
I'm the only one who show my true self

oshiete kureta no wa kimi to sugoshita kyou made no hibi
sou hajimete kuchi ni dekita nakitai kurai no hontou no yume wo

To tell you, until now, I gave up everything to spend with you
To start, this lips is made to cry, to make a dream real

ato hitotsu no sakamichi wo hitotsu dake no yoru wo koerareta nara waraeru hi ga kuru

tte
kyou mo shinjiteru kara kimi mo akiramenaide ite
nando demo kono ryoute wo ano sora he

One slope road, with one you is to make you smile
cause you belive in it and you must not give up
cause this both hand will reach the sky

atsuku natte mo muda nante kotoba kiki akita yo moshimo souda toshite mo
osae kirenai kono kimochi wo kibou to yobu nara
ittai dare ga tomerareru to iu no darou

Even if this words, that I hear are harsh, its still get on me
The feelings of hope and to hail is still uncontrollable
and I think it must stop

ato hitotsubu no namida ga hitokoto no yuuki ga ashita wo kaeru sono toki wo mita'n da
nakushi kaketa hikari kimi ga omoi da sasete kureta
ano hi no keshiki wasurenai

This one tear will be my one courage cause time will come back tomorrow,
the light that I will hold on,
that I will not forget the scenery

ato hitotsubu no namida de hitokoto no yuuki de negai ga kanau sono toki ga kuru tte
boku wa shinjiteru kara kimi mo akiramenaide ite
nando demo kono ryoute wo ano sora he nobashite ano sora he

Repeat **

Forever and Always - Parachute

Happy, this is for you :) I love you :)

"Forever And Always"

[Verse 1:]
She's sitting at the table, the hours get later
He was supposed to be here
She's sure he would have called
She waits a little longer, there's no one in the driveway
No one's said they've seen him
Why, is something wrong?
She looks back to the window
Suddenly the phone rings
A voice says something's happened
That she should come right now
Her mind goes to December
She thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knees first
And he said

[Chorus:]
I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always

[Verse 2:]
She pulls up to the entrance
She walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls, a maze that's never ending
They talk about what happened but she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room
She sits by his bedside, holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life
The house on the hillside, where they would stay

[Chorus:]
Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor or for better
We'll still love each other, forever and always

[Bridge:]
Then she gets an idea and calls in the nurses
Brings up the chaplain and he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings from the couple next door
Everybody's laughing as the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes, and she says

[Chorus:]
I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Forever and always, forever and always

She finishes the vows but the beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low
As he says, I love you forever, forever and always
Please just remember even if I'm not there
I'll always love you, forever and always