Happy birthday, Mommy!

 To my superwoman,

The way you love us is something I couldn’t trade for the world. I realized not everyone is given to stay close and attached to their parents especially when they’re far away. With you, you made us feel like you’re just on the next block, or just around the corner. Your love for us never fails to reach us that’s why despite the distance, we still managed to be this close as if the distance is just a number and it didn’t matter enough. As your only daughter, you have no idea how much it means to me how you managed to keep in touch, how you find ways to make us feel that you remember us. I know you’re pressed between so many workloads and busy schedules, but then again, giving us your time will always be your priority. If you feel like you wanted to rest or recharge, that would directly mean you wanted to talk to us. You made us your motivation to survive another day and ready to face tomorrow’s challenges.

You’re so generous that despite having our own families, you still flood us with questions on how you could help. We acknowledge the way you wanted to show how much you care and you had given enough. Still, you never limit and you always give what you are capable of giving.

For now, aside from wishing a very happy birthday, I also wish you to regain your strength and always be healthy with God's help. You're not getting any younger and I know it’s all new to you to have limited gestures and restrictions when it comes to the heavy chores you were so used to doing. And now, as we continue our everyday lives, I want this letter to give you the courage to combat what’s holding your health back. I know you are made of a brave heart and you are able to make it through. I know we still have more years to share and we will go on vacations, visit places we’ve never been to.

I still look forward to watching you grow old and you have your grandchildren surround you waiting for you to read them stories or your experiences. It excites me to think about that and that’s why you need to make sure you get to endure all things needed for you to always be in good shape. I want to spend more years with you and I still need your advice and your motherly guidance. I still look forward to knowing more from you, and that I needed you more than I needed anyone else.

Stay strong, Mommy. I know you are always bigger than all those trials . Never get tired of fighting and never give up on God. Cling to prayers. Cling to your hopes. I know we could make it. I am confident that you could make it, Mommy. 

Happy 63rd birthday! We love you so much! Thanks be to God!

 

 

 

On Your 8th

To our Awesome HARIELL







Happiness found me the very first day I set eyes on you.
From that moment, becoming a mother felt blessedly brand new.
You’re too fragile to hold at that time yet you took away all of our blues.
You brought colors into our lives, and all of our wishes come true.
 

As you slowly grow up, I had seen the best parts of me.
The part of me that has unspoken courage as I should be
A part of me that became so hardworking and felt so carefree.
A part of me gets excited to share another morning where all of us could see.
 
Reminiscing all the passing years since you brought colors to our home.
We are enthralled to watch all of your learning steps and how you’ve grown.
And as your parents, we want to make sure we provide you the best safe zones.
And in every journey you take, you’ll be reminded that you don’t face struggles all alone.
 
It still felt like yesterday, how you were once a baby I cradle on my arms.
Now you turned eight and all you brought to us were your kindness and charm.
On our troubled days, you became the light and calm.
We are thankful to have you and with us, you’ll stay safe and unharmed.
 
Everything that you do, made us truly happy.
The way you make people laugh and merry
All the jokes and wit at your age made us all eager and ready.
You brought sunshine in this home where love and joy remained steady.
 
Love will never run insufficient and you’ll grow up free for it to express.
We will watch every ladder you climb, each failure, and progress.
We will be here to cheer the loudest for the anticipated success.
When it comes to love, we will make sure you’ll never get less.
 

Let’s take every year slow, and we will stand guard over your dreams.
We will have the heart to listen and help you build your self-esteem.
We will remain as someone whom you could trust and will give you what you need.
We love you our little sunshine, you and Zeo are the best gifts that we ever received.

Masamang Panaginip

Time check: 0742H

Ang aga aga. Tulog pa talaga ako ng mga ganitong oras. Kaso nagising ako, ramdam ko pa yung bigat sa dibdib. Nanalangin muna ako bago ako umupo... Gising na din si Kingkong, nanunuod ng movie...

Tinawag ko sya tapos niyakap. Sabi nya nanaginip ka na naman? ...Nung mga nakaraang araw kasi napapanaginipan ko yung mga ex ko. Natatawa sya pag nagkukwento ako. Kaso iba tong napanaginipan ko. Dahil nung tinanong nya, ano daw napanaginipan ko? Minuestra ko sa kamay ko na wala ka na daw.

Umiyak ako. Ang bigat sa loob. Naaalala ko halos lahat. Sobrang lungkot. Ang lungkot lungkot ko.

Pano daw sya namatay? ....Di ko matandaan eh pero nung nalaman ko daw, sinarili ko muna. Wala pa akong pinagsasabihan. Pero paikot ikot lang ako, di ko alam ang gagawin. Andun sila Hariell at Zeo, pinipilit ko daw maging maayos. May tao din na nagcocomputer, di ko masyado matandaan. Paikot ikot lang ako. Tapos, may nakita daw ako sa social media na nagpost tungkol ke king na parang you are a great loss ganyan ganyan... So naisip ko na may nakakaalam na? ...tumawag daw ako kay Tito Ojie pero si ate jane ang sumagot. "Ate Jane....." "Ano neng? Malubha ba sila DV?" ...."Di ko po alam yung kay Sir Dex pero si King....." — "Wag mo na sabihin......" 

May dumating daw sa babang kwarto. Iniisip ko daw na sana si King yun. Sana di sya nawala. Kaso ang dumating daw para samahan ako ay sina Tita Lyn, tapos may isa pa (si Tito Ode ata yun), tapos si Tito Ojie. Dumating sila para samahan at tulungan ako. Di ko talaga alam anong gagawin ko sa panaginip ko. Sobrang lungkot at lutang.

May parang music video pa daw na bagong gawa nun si king saken kaso di na pala sya makakauwi. 

Habang kinukwento ko ke kingkong yung panaginip ko, nakikinig syang mabuti. Lungkot talaga ako. Ang bigat sa dibdib. 

Tapos sabi nya yung pinapanuod nya din daw na movie ngayon, papatayin daw yung asawa.

Di ko alam sa panaginip ko kung magkasama kaya sila king at DV nun? Di ko alam. basta sana wag muna. Ang hirap nun. Haaaaayyyyy...... :(

To the Years of Constant Blessings

 

To the years of constant blessings,

Thanking God for another
 year in my life

Today is extra special since today is her birthday. It’s another day to unfold the past years where she was able to emerge from life’s greatest call of challenges. Her life for thirty-nine years was never a smooth-sailing ride but throughout her journey, she saw both her strengths and weaknesses. She witnessed the things she’s able to surpass and unleash new-found courage in her. She knew she’s not like anyone else for she’s able to still find lessons behind bad days.

She considers herself lucky enough to be surrounded by genuine people who never left her when the sun shows up. Her husband is her good sight example of a hardworking parent. She admires how his husband is willing to do anything just to support the family. He works diligently and decently as a researcher, book writer, online buy and sell, business consultant and anything else he could think of that requires his wit and talent. She also wakes up every morning knowing how blessed she is for having their two sons —their motivation and one of the reasons why they wanted to be better people. Her sons who calls her “Nanay” are all well-loved and everything they need is always met and provided. She always looks forward to giving their sons the comfort of home and that they are free to grow and discover themselves.

She too is a hardworking woman who wanted to take every opportunity that is served on her table. She does their daily online schooling, serves them the best food, she does house cleaning, laundry, and anything to make their home a better place. Most of the time, everything leads to exhaustion but she knows it’s all worth it. She is still eager to do the same routine every day if that would mean, giving her family the light feeling of safety and love. She made sure that her kids are raised with good manners and impart them Christian values. Somehow she knew that being a mother is her calling for she’s raising kids for the Kingdom of Heaven. She makes sure that her kids know what’s right and what’s wrong, that they can sympathize, feel things freely, explore their growth, treat people with kindness and humility using the guidance and fear of God.

Thankful to God

For her, they are her definition of receiving the best gift of life —her all-out fun, and loving family. Just by looking at them, she knew it’s all worth the fight and exhaustion. She knew that her heart is so full of love that she’ll never run out of it when it comes to her family. They are her definition of immeasurable happiness that no amount of luxury in this world could ever trade for. Her birthday wish will always fall towards her family’s sake. That they will continue to grow in harmony and have God in the center of everything that they do. She knew that there are more challenges in the future but she knew they could make it together as long as they’ll remain as a team. Every day she received her gift through her family and she’s always thankful for that.

There’s no such thing as perfect life for the perfect life is boring. What she had is a life filled with newly discovered riches through experiences, memories of watching how they grow at the same pace, and hearing the noise inside a home that represents unconditional love. More so, she’s thankful for another year because it all means she’s here for a reason and a purpose. 

Kulitan Muna

Yung feeling mo may calling ka sa pagtula pero muka namang wala 😂😂

TLC

 Yung nung sinabi nya na masakit ang pakiramdam nya, to the rescue ako at hinilot ko agad ang likod nya, pati binti at paa, braso at kamay. Buti na lang magaling ako mag masahe 😍 maligaya ako na maibsan ang sakit na nararamdaman nya kahit saglit lang. Malapit na uli syang umalis pabalik sa Japan. Maaalala ko sya lagi pag wala na uli sya.

 Tulog na sila Wawa at Mommy
Kami ni Hariell gising pa. Bleeeh 😝

Touch of love, ma.
Nakatulog sya sa masahe ko 😍

I love you, ma.😘

Iloveyouwithoutspaces

 "I love you," she said. "Not because you made me feel things. Not because you set my heart on fire. Not because you put me first on the list or because you saved me your front seats. I love you because even if I am at my darkest days, you don't tell me to wait for the sun to perk up instead you tell me that we all go through that phase. You don't tell me I'll be over it soon but instead you tell me what there is why it happened. You don't tell me to escape from my struggles but you motivate me to face them because I am braver than my looks. You don't only give me special treatments instead, you made me feel what being a real human should feel. You put validations over the things inside of me that I can't accept and that being imperfect is perfection. Being delicate is normal. Being grey is neutral but still good for blending. You made me your favorite part of the day and that I learned to love myself by loving you. You made me my own person."

- Mica Meñez, iloveyouwithoutspaces
Repost from A Cup of Words and Coffee

Nocturnals

Gabing gabi na. Di pa natutulog. Kakalaro ng lego.

Sabagay, wala walan pasok bukas.

Sige, laro lang kayo. Enjoy. Haha

Happy Anniversary!

Today is our 4th wedding anniversary. Thanks be to God for another year down to our lifetime of counting of togetherness.

Though we don't date a lot anymore (and if we do, we have to bring the kids to date with us), our boyfriend-girlfriend moments will always be kept in my memory treasure chest :) Though our priorities have changed, I am just so relieved that I get to pass through all these changes and adjustments with my husband. I still keep the faith that He gave me Happy because noone else is like him that could keep up with me and accept all of me.

Then and again I get to ask him if he ever regret marrying me. I hope 10, 20, 30, 40 years from now or until that time God wills us to still have each other, I would still hear him say "no" - the sweetest no I could ever take as an answer, perhaps.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies but that's marriage and that's us. And for me, just to have my husband as my best friend and lifelong partner is more than enough.

Thanks be to God for this wonderful present that I will open everyday.

Hariell on Speech Improvement

Last night, I was not too busy at work, I googled on "25 month old baby still not talking"
I read that kids' development are different from others and that there might be some who are late talkers. Or there might be some speech-language disorder. You'll never know until you get some expert advice and have them undergo therapy.

To gauge if he's just fine, the kiddo has to be able to speak at least 25 words. I quickly identified Hariell's usually spoken words:
1) nanay
2) tatay
3) baby
4) wawa (his petname for his brother Zeo)
5) wow
6) kanin
7) la na
8) mam
9) tey (thank you)
10) bye
11) hi

...after 11, I couldn't think more of what he speaks that we usually hear. Other than this, all his talks are babbles and unclear words. I felt sad and worried.

This morning, in bed, I talked to my husband about this and told him that maybe we could have Hariell checked up by his pediatrician. He's fine with it.

Then I sweetly grabbed Hariell, and looked in his eye. I slowly said "Apple". I was shocked that he copied me and said "Apai" . I laughed in relief that he said apple! My husband also laughed proudly... Then I tried saying "bike" ...Hariell said "bike". I said "banana", he said "papana" .... I " said "car" , he repeated as "cai" ...i am so proud of him, cant stop kissing my little boy! ...Next, I said "dog", funny, he said "aw-aw"

LOL

Then I suddenly recalled that he already could say bike, chicken, egg. One time, he even said "langgam"

So maybe yah, I shouldn't be too frustrated of him not knowing yet his ABCs and 123. Afterall, he's just 2 years old and our 1st forever baby in the family. Maybe we'll just let him take his time growing and progressing. Coz i've been warned that when a toddler starts talking, you bet, you'd have a hard time making him stop!

taking one step at a time :)