So Many Reasons To Be Happy

Good men of God :)

Nanay's recovery :)

More and more healthy growing Miro :)

Good job :)

Teaching Career :)

My wacko and ever loving friends :)

Sunny day :)

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I've always been the kind of girl who thought she might never want or have kids. I enjoy that I can be selfish, I like to sleep, I live my life how I want. I have a maternal instinct with friends and family, and they know it but I always thought I was too much of a control freak to raise a kid.

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I don't have a boyfriend, let alone a baby's daddy, but lately I have a really, really strong desire for a child. It seems to have come out of nowhere. I've never felt anything like this and I'm scared of these feelings/hormones/emotions. Could this just be a temporary hormonal thing? I thought the biological clock started ticking closer to late thirties- am I just fertile right now?

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Any anecdotes, advice or understanding would be greatly appreciated as I don't understand what is happening to me.

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One last note...The idea of being pregnant or giving birth is not appealing at all, but the mother idea is. I've had dreams about taking care of other people's kids and met a single dad recently who I found myself very attracted to. I thought that helping him raise his child would be really wonderful. This all feels foreign and scary, please help me understand!! Thanks!

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One of my friends left a message at the chatbox (see image below):

I do not know why he wants to be in my blog but HERE YOU GO! haha

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Sana, Ferdie, natupad ko ang isa sa mga pangarap mo hahaha maisama yang pangalan mo sa blogspot ko >:p

Drama mo talaga errrrrrr :)))))

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Ellay's Baby? Why Not.

I attended our Thanksgiving Service today and the topic was about how important are the Lambs of God in the Church and that taking care of them means loving God.

Basically, the topic said that God's servants must take care of their children (or also termed in the Bible, lambs). Taking care not just means giving the kids material things they need but also being concern about their spiritual welfare. Doing this gives you an extra shot of making it to heaven because you are taking care of somebody who will automatically inherit heaven. Yes, those lucky children :) Heaven is theirs :) Matthew 19:14 / 1 Tim 5:1-2 / Jn 21:15 read those.

Well, anyway, I find today's topic very consoling to those parents who are really having a hard time raising up their kids. Just being patient to those kids running around, screaming like there's no tomorrow; those boys and girls growing up... Just now I remember Bro. Daniel said how children on his generation were disciplined even by just a mere look from their father. But now, children are very stubborn. I mean very very stubborn. Parents must be very capable of enduring such kids or else. So, yes, good parents must be given an extra chance. Agree! Agree!

Saying this, being a VERY easy going - careless - laid back person that I am, I admit I am really not into kids. I love my nephew though, but talking about other children, I really do not find them fascinating. I do not hate kids but I do not love them neither. Just fair. Sometimes, I find them cute, most of the time, I do not. Then again, hearing our preachers talk about this topic made me want to have kids (or singular, at least) to take care of. I am really not sure if I am going to be the best mother but I think I am going to be a good one (with God's help).

I do not see myself marrying or having my own family anymore. I also do not picture myself being pregnant and carrying my own child inside my tummy. So I just thought of adopting a child, preferably, a boy, by the age of 33? But then again, I still have 4 more years to think about it over and over and over and over and over.... and over.

But yah, why not? I also want to have an extra chance to go to heaven :)

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I am also reblogging this baby post from my other blogsite

I SAW HIM

March 16, 2011

I saw my baby, my son, in my dream last night. He kinda looked like this baby I googled:

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In my dream, an ex was taking care of my son but I was pretty sure he's not the father. Well anyway, I do not know why he was there but again, he was baby sitting and I was letting him take care of my baby because I was kinda busy working. Then the scene changed. We were in a hospital or something. There was actually no story at all so the actions were kind of confusing because on the later part of my dream, my youngest brother came in the picture. Outdoor, the place had a big shelf of books and the scene looked chaotic, dark clouds, and creepy dawn-like background.

Anyway, my baby was really heartbreakingly cute and there, I loved him so much. He looks similar to the baby on the picture. I cannot say exactly how I am feeling now (and in my dream) but my heart is softened and I feel like melting staring at my son's adorable and lovely little face.

Would I get to see you when I am older? If ever, I believe you will change my life in the best way I could imagine.

Take care there my little son, wherever you are :) I hope to meet you someday if God wills. :)

Stupid. Brainless. Foolish. Illogical, Reckless, Dead Duck.

Yah, sometimes, I could be that.

Remember When...

(click here to watch video clip with this very touching music)


Remember when I was young and so were you
and time stood still and love was all we knew
You were the first, so was I
We made love and then you cried
Remember when

Remember when we vowed the vows
and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt
Remember when

Remember when old ones died and new were born
And life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
We came together, fell apart
And broke each other's hearts
Remember when

Remember when the sound of little feet
was the music
We danced to week to week
Brought back the love, we found trust
Vowed we'd never give it up
Remember when

Remember when thirty seemed so old
Now lookn' back it's just a steppin' stone
To where we are,
Where we've been
Said we'd do it all again
Remember when
Remember when we said when we turned gray
When the children grow up and move away
We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when

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Heartbreak Excerpt

It's funny, isn't it, how you're always on my mind now. You never asked to be remembered when we parted. But it's you, it's still you, will always be you, and I'm the sad freak who still doesn't get it: it's over, you're gone, finito.

Times like these I ask myself if I really understand anything or am I just being stubborn or afraid to be alone.

~heartbreak

Japanese Class

Lately, my heart is overwhelming with joy. It is because of this new happening in my life now. My good friend, Sheila, just gave me something sensible to do. Not counting all the dramas that I got used to do everyday, this one is different!

I started teaching Nihongo 2 Wednesdays ago. I say it is really fun and very very fulfilling. It is, really. Considering that I only receive an itsy bitsy teenie weenie small shot of money here, it actually does not bother me at all. I do not mind AT ALL. I just love what I am doing. It is like having something really worth the effort. I feel like I am falling inlove, you know the feeling? (haha)

Nah, but seriously, it is really an honor to be teaching students such as the kids on the class that I am at. They are really interested with the subject and they got some noble reasons to learn, too! I feel so much privileged! I thank God for this. It feels that suddenly, I only got tears for happiness :)

Here are some pics on the first day that I met these little-big babies that are now making my heart smile without them even lifting a finger. I just love sharing what I know with them :)

Okay, that's me showing the book and telling them something about Japanese writing system. The characters you see on the board say: ba-bi-bu-pe-po... ma-mi-mu (haha)

Me again, pointing at the Japanese characters, explaining stuff and all that. You see the hairy heads of my students? Nice, huh? :D

This looks funny. It looked like I was about to sneeze but actually, I did not.

I picture myself as a weather forecaster. haha I might look like this. Only with raincoats on.

You see my whole outfit. And you see half of the class. There's more at the back rows :) My gosh, I keep on pointing at the same thing! haha

Classes are every Wednesday. 0900H - 1200H at La Verdad Christian College, Caloocan.

I will do this for the whole semester. I am falling inlove with this :)

Thank You :)

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H-A-P-P-Y

NOTHING MUCH

Reblogged from my old blogsite

November 26, 2008

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When you're happy, there's nothing much to complain about.

Nothing much to blog... nothing much to think of.. nothing much to tell.. nothing much to do, actually...

coz while being happy, u'r pretty much busy doing nothing else :)

..u'r just happy..and more happy :)

Good Morning, Jack (hammer)!

Today, I was awakened by the disturbing sound of jack hammer in front of our house. The road is being serviced and construction men were working and literally breaking it down. With all the noise and smashing going around, I posted this on FB:

I dunno. I was helpless. (haha)

The Warrior is a Child - Gary V.

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
I'm strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
Chorus:
They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)
Unafraid because His arrow is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
I never face retreat, oh no
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
Chorus:
They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)
They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/gary_v

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/gary_valenciano/#share

Kuya's Text Message

"Okay lang. Wag mo kami intindihin. Dalawa kami may work. Ikaw mag-ipon, mahaba lalakbayin mo. I love you."

Koya

7-11-2011

11:44am

OPERA

I left the hospital this morning before Nanay was sent off to the operation room. I pray she'd be fine. I will see her tomorrow evening. I love her so much, I hope she'd make it with God's mercy.

Please make her fine :(

Twist of Fate

REBLOGGED FROM MY OLD SITEMonday, November 24, 2008

Her Royalty, Princess Ella writes:

Just when you thought you can never be happy again, all of a sudden, happiness finds you and stands right infront of you..

then, BAM!

You're smiling again :)

You Ask Me Why? I Tell You Why

"People wonder why I always write about pain. I am never too happy, never peaceful. It is like I do well in getting hurt. I am such a pushover for love.

But wouldn't you? Write about pain, I mean. When you have reached the threshold, the very edge of pain and know that it is only going to get worse, wouldn't you write about the very thing that is ripping you apart? When there is nothing left of you, wouldn't you write about the person who has made you love like that?

Ah, but what do I know. I just throw away these words because I can not bear to keep them. No, I can not bear to keep them."

- Heartbreak