Dear Kingkong

 

 You came back into my life during the time when I had given up on love but then, love’s too wondrous and too unpredictable —it arrived in such a moment that would eventually change everything about me forever. You have no idea how thankful I am for that very moment, that I got the chance to be loved again by you. I am truly blessed knowing that not everyone gets the ideal relationship that sticks with them through thick and thin, and here you are, constantly reminding me that you’ll be the loudest cheer during my best days and also the one who stays longer to comfort me during my worst times. You show me love and support that’s real and it’s because of that I am able to relish my courage and forget about my doubts. 

All my prayers were answered for it felt like my topsy-turvy world finally found the right place to settle down and just enjoy how love will bring into order all of my messy perceptions about life. I feel so complete knowing I am loved by you. You reminded me about my purpose and you never made me question my own worth. You give me more than what I ask for because making us happy, turns out to be your own happiness too.

I know we aren’t perfect. You have your issues. I have my issues. You have your storms. I have my rains. Sometimes, we feel like all our pieces fit perfectly together. Sometimes, we sound like contrasting shapes. We have some misunderstandings, just like everyone else. Some happens consecutively and sometimes, we feel like we could go for months not bringing any nonsensical issues at the top of the table. We both grow mature together to the point that I learn so much about myself by the way you love and take care of me.  

I love you so much and I know I am not really the one who initiates affection because both of us have learned to face life’s reality and busy schedules. But I know you love me the same for you unravel the things that would lit up a fight. You  inspire me to be better despite knowing we both have off-moments but that’s completely understandable because both of us are working together to make sure our kids have secured future. I always find myself smiling at how I found someone who has the same goals as me, someone who works on what he promises.  

And we still have more roller coaster ventures that we will take together and I am more than willing to wait to unfold each memory-waiting-to-happen with you. I hope every day, life and love will continuously draw us closer to each other. I hope we’ll find an opportunity through it to strengthen our relationship. We’ve seen the darkest nights and witnessed the best sunrises. And it’s all worth being with you. 

Masamang Panaginip

Time check: 0742H

Ang aga aga. Tulog pa talaga ako ng mga ganitong oras. Kaso nagising ako, ramdam ko pa yung bigat sa dibdib. Nanalangin muna ako bago ako umupo... Gising na din si Kingkong, nanunuod ng movie...

Tinawag ko sya tapos niyakap. Sabi nya nanaginip ka na naman? ...Nung mga nakaraang araw kasi napapanaginipan ko yung mga ex ko. Natatawa sya pag nagkukwento ako. Kaso iba tong napanaginipan ko. Dahil nung tinanong nya, ano daw napanaginipan ko? Minuestra ko sa kamay ko na wala ka na daw.

Umiyak ako. Ang bigat sa loob. Naaalala ko halos lahat. Sobrang lungkot. Ang lungkot lungkot ko.

Pano daw sya namatay? ....Di ko matandaan eh pero nung nalaman ko daw, sinarili ko muna. Wala pa akong pinagsasabihan. Pero paikot ikot lang ako, di ko alam ang gagawin. Andun sila Hariell at Zeo, pinipilit ko daw maging maayos. May tao din na nagcocomputer, di ko masyado matandaan. Paikot ikot lang ako. Tapos, may nakita daw ako sa social media na nagpost tungkol ke king na parang you are a great loss ganyan ganyan... So naisip ko na may nakakaalam na? ...tumawag daw ako kay Tito Ojie pero si ate jane ang sumagot. "Ate Jane....." "Ano neng? Malubha ba sila DV?" ...."Di ko po alam yung kay Sir Dex pero si King....." — "Wag mo na sabihin......" 

May dumating daw sa babang kwarto. Iniisip ko daw na sana si King yun. Sana di sya nawala. Kaso ang dumating daw para samahan ako ay sina Tita Lyn, tapos may isa pa (si Tito Ode ata yun), tapos si Tito Ojie. Dumating sila para samahan at tulungan ako. Di ko talaga alam anong gagawin ko sa panaginip ko. Sobrang lungkot at lutang.

May parang music video pa daw na bagong gawa nun si king saken kaso di na pala sya makakauwi. 

Habang kinukwento ko ke kingkong yung panaginip ko, nakikinig syang mabuti. Lungkot talaga ako. Ang bigat sa dibdib. 

Tapos sabi nya yung pinapanuod nya din daw na movie ngayon, papatayin daw yung asawa.

Di ko alam sa panaginip ko kung magkasama kaya sila king at DV nun? Di ko alam. basta sana wag muna. Ang hirap nun. Haaaaayyyyy...... :(